Saturday, May 30, 2009

She's sweet... in a crazy chuck e cheese animatronic creature kind of
way.
~Andy, Reaper

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Life's twists and turns are never as straight forward as we'd like. We
are forced to navigate the way using the compass that is our hearts,
beliefs, and morals. If you listen to your compass, you will always be
on the right path. 

~Steve Palek

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Don't forget that there are other people who will feel that they have
lost everything if they lose you
~the power of love, elisabeth chandler

Monday, May 25, 2009

Laugh your heart out Dance in the rain Cherish the moment Ignore the
pain Live, laugh, love Forgive & forget Life's too short to be Living
with regrets.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

She stood out like a red rose in a field of white lilies
~ me

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I knew how I felt, but I couldn't come up with a good enough reason why I should feel that way. I believed happiness was something you had to earn through a suitable measure of suffering, the way the characters in my favorite books struggled with blindness, polio, Nazis, shipwreck, blizzards - unspeakable adversities through which, damaged but undefeated, they endured. And what had I suffered? Not one damn thing.
~Skin Game: a Memoir, Caroline Kettlewell pg11
To draw something is to try and capture it forever.
~City of Ashes pg441


Scotch with Splenda! Tastes like Splenda, gets you drunk like scotch.
~Michael, the office


"Because you weren't in love with him. That's an iffy proposition, and I think he's handling it with grace. A lot of teenage boys would sulk, or lurk around your window with a boom box."
"No one has a boom box anymore. that was the eighties."
~City of Glass pg11


I went to therapy because I wanted to see if i could learn to inhabit my one life, and not just watch it from the wings like a stage manager.
~Skin Game: a memoir, Caroline kettlewell pg164
The Institute had gone dark and silent, like a mechanical doll whose clockwork heart had run down.
~City of Glass, Melissa Claire pg24


If you cant tell the truth to people you care about the most, eventually you stop being able to tell the truth to yourself.
~City of Ashes
Ivy sat still with her head down. At one time she would have prayed to her angels for strength, but she couldn't anymore. She held herself still, wrapping her arms around herself. She shut down all thoughts, all feelings; She blocked out all the angry words that whirled around her. Numb, she would stay numb; if only she could stay numb forever.
~Kissed By an Angel pg223


If i feel the urge to burst into flames, I'll let you know.
~Simon, City of Glass pg15


I have a fetish for Damsels in distress.
~Sebastian, City of Glass pg135

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Once again, I wanted to kill something in myself, wanted to bleed it out until I was left with the bare, clean baseline, the absolute zero from which point i could rebuild a better version of myself.


Could my history be read on my face?
~Skin Game pg123


I still cant quite convince myself that anyone has ever loved me enough to be sorry when I was gone.


What happened next was that a perfect, straight line of blood bloomed from under the edge of the blade. The line grew into a long, fat bubble, a lush crimson bubble that got bigger and bigger. I watched from above, waiting to see how big it would get before it burst. When it did, i felt awesome. Satisfied, finally. then exhausted.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg3


Your black leather chair groans like a living thing. Like a cow it used to be before somebody killed it and turned it into a chair in a shrinks office in a loony bin.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg1


I wanted to cut for the cut itself, for the delicate severing of capillaries, the transgression of veins. I needed to cut the way your lungs scream for air when you swim the length of the pool underwater in one breath.
~Skin Game: a memoir, Caroline Kettlewell pg13


The idea and urge to cut seemed to arise from my very skin itself.
~Skin Game pg58


I cut for dread of the future
~Skin Game pg65
I wasn't after happiness anymore. I just wanted to survive.
~Bloodletting, Victoria Leatham pg1


Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think.
~La Bruyere


Sober, I didn't trust men at all, they were partially to blame for this.
~Bloodletting pg29


Don't sit on your dreams. Think big and act big. You can be an eagle in this world, or you can be a cow.
...As someone shoved a fouled-up program over my desk for the thousandth time, I had an almost uncontrollable urge to moo.
~Sam, Jack Weyland pg114


When angry, count to four; when very angry, swear.
~Samuel L. Clemmings (Mark Twain)


Glory belongs to God alone.
~City of Glass, pg493


"Weakness and corruption isn't in the world" Clary snapped. "It's in people. And it always will be. The world just needs good people to balance it out. And you're planning to kill them all."
~City of Glass pg474


Then come to realize that you're making mountains out of molehills. Realize how pretty you've become. Sure, it may feel like you cant get a grip in this town. it may seem that every time someone offers you a hand up, they just let go and you slip further down. But you must stop being so pessimistic, Hannah, and learn to trust those around you. So I do, one more time.
~Thirteen Reasons Why pg145


Here's a tip. If you touch a girl, even as a joke, and she pushed you off, leave.. her... alone. Don't touch her.


She walked the same halls he did, but it was as if she traveled in another world.
~Kissed By an Angel, Elisabeth Chandler pg21


He told you that being around you was like bleeding to death slowly.
~City of Glass pg303


Then I decided that it was time to get out the razor. Cutting was the only thing that would make me feel better; there was no other way I could handle being with myself anymore.
~Bloodletting pg32


I kept cutting, because it worked. When i cut, i felt better for a while. When i cut, my life no longer overwhelmed me.
~Skin Game pg176
I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me.


You go on in life because another day rolls around and expects things of you.
~Skin Game: a memoir, Caroline Kettlewell pg22


Why? that's the question you always come back to, the tough one. Why cut? Why of all things, take a razor blade to my skin?
~Skin Game: A memoir pg58


You have to act crazy in crazy ways, after all, to look crazy.
~Skin Game pg70


It is desire that makes us suffer.
~Buddhist Saying


I needed cutting now the way a diabetic needs insulin


The size of the cut mattered less than the volume of blood.


I'd discovered a way to control my feelings.
~Bloodletting pg7
If you don't expect anything, you don't get disappointed.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg8
It was like my whole body was just this one spot on my arm that was begging to be scratched, carved, cut - anything, anything - for relief.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg18
A safety pin and hairspray. Rubbing alcohol's good, too. But Hair spray's the best. it makes your scars puff up.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg 122

The joke is about a family riding along in a brand new convertible. the car hits a bump, and one of the kids, a girl names Ruth, falls out. But the family keeps on driving. Ruthlessly. "Get it?" he would say, grinning. "Ruthlessly?"
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg42

How much of the way we end up seeing ourselves is shaped by our own interpretations?"
~Skin Game pg23

Sleeping was better than giving in to the urge to hurt myself, no matter how much I believed I deserved it.
~Bloodletting pg77

I have a high pain threshold. In fact, its less of a threshold and more of a large and tastefully decorated foyer.
~Jace, City of Bones, Melissa Claire pg 296

Love takes your choices away.

Long is the way and hard, that out of Hell leads up to light.
~John Milton, Paradise Lost.

I only count the hours that shine.

If you really love something, you never try to keep it the way it is forever. you have to let it be free to change.
~City of Ashes, Melissa Claire pg441

I never realized this before, but Ice is the best-tasting thing in the entire world. I could eat ice for breakfast, lunch, dinner and dessert. i wish i could live on ice.
~the Burn Journals pg32

She was standing a little ways away, wearing brown leather pants and a tight black t-shirt that said "Whatever doesn't kill me.. Had better start running."
~City of Glass
"I may not want to get rid of my scars" i say finally.
you nod.
"They tell a story." I say.
"Yes," you say, "they do."
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg125
And if our final day has come, lets pretend to t carry on. And if the end has now begun, live one, live one.
~Final Day, Tokio Hotel
You cant call a piece of fruit an apple when you want to eat it and a dandelion when you don't want to eat it. its the same sort of fruit no matter what your intentions towards it.
~Girl Interrupted, Susanna Kaysen pg142
Somewhere out there you lost yourself in your pain. you dream of the end to start all over again.
~Don't Jump, Tokio Hotel
Her first time on the edge, the scars will stay forever. Side to side with death, a moment that feels better. Darkness and light are blinding her sight. Shes not coming back.
~On The Edge, Tokio Hotel
No one knows how you feel, no one there you'd like to see. the day was dark and full of pain, you write help with your own blood cause hope is all you've got. you open your eyes but nothings changed.
~By Your Side, Tokio Hotel
There are all kinds of things in the world you could use to hurt yourself. All kinds of things you could turn into weapons. Even if you wanted to give them all to me, it wouldn't be possible. you know that, don't you?
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg126
Whats wrong with letting people know what you're doing, or how you're feeling.
~Cut, Patricia McCormick pg83
What I was feeling, anyway - it wasn't nearly interesting enough to be true and tragic unhappiness. It felt neither romantic nor dramatic nor poetic, but rather grinding and unpleasant, like a sore throat.
~Skin Game: a memoir, Caroline Kettlewell pg12
"What are you scared of?"
"Being open. Being hurt. Liking. Not being liked. Seeing the flicker on. Seeing the flicker off. Leaping. Falling. Crushing."
~Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
I never got him anything. I thought that if i did it would mean I liked him more than I thought I did, but in truth, just spending so much thought on him should have told me.
~Swollen, Melissa Lion

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

The next time you work on your trees, don't think about trees. think about love, or hate, or joy, or rage - whatever makes you feel something, makes your palms sweat or your toes curl. Focus on that feeling. When people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time.
~Laurie Halse Anderson, Speak pg122
I am empty. Or, no... I am full of pain. Its my life that's empty.
~Nick, Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
The Bathroom smelled of disinfectant and body functions
Draw the bright chrome of the blade along the slender rope of vein wrapping sinuous around your left wrist, and everything parts obediently beneith your commands, like the Red Sea before Moses
Is nothing more fascinating than our own blood? The scarlet beauty of it the pulsing immediacy. the way it courses through its endless circuit of comings and goings, slipping and rushing and seeping down to the cells of us, the intimate insider that knows all thew news, that's been down to the mail room and up to the boardroom.
~Skin Game: a memoir, Caroline Kettlewell pg 3&4
Delia's arms were inscribed with a grid of self-inflicted wounds, on intricate text of self loathing.
~Brightness Falls, Jay McInerney
Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
When I am Queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists that everything you once held dear is taken away from you.
~When I am Queen, Jack off Jill
I see your scars I know where they're from. so sensually carved and bleeding until your dead and gone.
~Beyond Redemption, HIM
Skin has a good memory. Skin is like the ground we walk every day; youcan read a whole history in it if you know how to look
~Skin Games: a memoir, Caroline Kettlewell
I find myself bleeding invisibly across the stage.
~Nick, Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
Art is about making mistakes and learning from them.
~Laurie Halse Anderson, Speak pg122
Happiness is finding someone you like at your front door.
Art without emotion is like Chocolate cake without sugar, it makes you gag.
~Laurie Halse Anderson, Speak pg122
Imagination is the eye of the soul. ~Joubert
I may not be in control of anything else, but I am in control of my body.
~The Carpenters: the Untold Story, Karen Carpenter
If bigger scars make better stories then you should see the scars on me
~ Bigger Scars Make Better Stories, Search the City
The more you love, the more you hurt. What's worse, you hurt for him as well as for yourself. ~Kissed by an Angel, Elisabeth Chandler
What's the point in crying when there was no one there to comfort you?
And what was worse, when you couldn't even comfort yourself?

Monday, May 18, 2009

Self-Injury is a sign of distress not madness. We should be
congratulated on having found a way of surviving.
~ Cory Anderson

Cold hearts don't bleed
~ Ashley Meek

We are all broken in one way or another.

You've got to have roots before you can have branches
When I die they can ID my body by my scars
I see my scars as beautiful, not as a punishment of what I did
~ me
These bandages cover more than scrapes, cuts and bruises from regrets
and mistakes.
~ Bandages, HotHotHeat
I thought I lost you when you ran away to try and find me
~ I thought I lost you, Miley Cyrus
Samantha--
the water flowed past his muscular body; it lifted him up as he moved
swiftly and powerfully through it. When he swam the butterfly, his arms
pulling up out of the water like wings, he was visual music-strong,
rhythmic, graceful.
~Kissed by an Angel, Elisabeth Chandler pg93

Cutting

Why cant you get it
its just what I do.
I don't want to talk about it,
its mainly because of you!
You make me hate myself
the way you point out all my flaws
and blame me for things.
its no wonder i dont do it more
i just wish they were easier to cover
so you would leave me alone.
Disney gave me unrealistic expectations about love.
To draw you must close your eyes and sing. ~Picasso
Never regret anything in life because at one time it was exactly what you wanted.
I have the heart of a child, its in a jar on my shelf.
All those scars on her arm. Dont worry, she says they're little notes to remind her how many times you broke her heart.
I'm a cutter. Shhh... don't tell, its socially unacceptable that i express pain.
Scars are stories written on the body
I hurt myself so you cant
The marks on her arms will dry... but they will haunt for eternity.
My Scars are my favorite tattoos
Sick of crying, tired of lying. yeah im smiling but inside im dying.
Note to Self: it is illegal to stab people for being stupid
Girls who have a strong belief system are beautiful in a great way. ~Kevin Jonas
Her favorite song will say more about her than her mouth ever will.
Sometimes when i say "Oh I'm Fine" I want someone to look me in the eye and say "Tell the truth."
Life isnt about finding yourself, its about creating yourself
A friend would lend you an umbrella in the rain... but a true friend would take your and say Run Bitch Run!
Reality is for people who lack imagination
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... its about learning to dance in the rain.
Love is the slowest form of suicide.
Life is not in the amount of breaths you take. its the moments that take your breath away.
Sometimes you just need to be with the one person who makes you smile even if it means waiting.
I’m sorry she has a heart condition… she doesn’t have one
~Grace, Will and Grace